Yesterday, I was so upset and tired that I went to the bed at 18pm... Yeah.. it´s looks like a crazy bitch sick problem... but I sure my biggest problem is in the soul. So, Body... just work and do everything work better... It´s amazing but sometimes your body just close for a while... I just thinking about Dead Living Movies.. Hey... We´re dead guys who just walk, work, go to the bath, sleep and eat... who get older and decompose... ok, it´s true... it´s a bad view of life, but I would like to think just like a black joke and a bad taste sarcasm!!!

Just like ABBA sang Thank you for the Music ! I really thanks for the music... Every Bossa Nova songs, Frank Sinatra, Edit Piaf, Carpenters, Madonna, Destiny Child, Alcazar, BJ Tomas, Barry White, Maria Callas, Barry Manilow, recentely: Nickelback, Love Split Love, Maroon 5...  and so many that I love to listen to fill my heart in every moments... It´s a kind of peace... Thanks God for every guitar... I learned english (not a good one, of course..... hihihihi)... in Roxette songs like Spending my time that was part of  my audio english classes. Well, in this days I´ve burning a lot of fat and I´m with 74 pounds that it´s really nice for a guy with almost 2 meters... so let´s try to fit it... I just discovered that I dont like to eat anymore... I hate thing about food... and sometimes I would like to live alone again just for not eat... yeah.. It could be a disturbing problem, but I´m sure it´s just a freak bad mood bullshit... so... I´m gonna thing about new ways that I´m gonna to choose in my life in this days... I´m gonna beginning again... maybe in another place... or in another life... but I really have to thing about my life priorities and I´m not counting with anybody to help me with it (real friends dont deserve listen our problems...hihihihihi)... something is just die in my soul... I´m not the same...I think I´m finally became  a grown up adult who wants just want do his job. Ok... Let´s do it ! Just listen ABBA in hard situations...

Good choose for a good movie in theatre: THE PRODUCERS ! Yeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssssssssssss... I really laught and I´ve seen it for three times ! It´s a amazing for a person who usually watch 3 movies per day... and doesnt see something cool since the unique Bjork (the singer) movie...

I gave up. I´m dont wan´t stay blue anymore, in this days something really bad happed with me and I extremally hurt and down about this kind of thing that changes the subjects in our life. People dont care, I´m dont care anymore... I´m not  a human being, I´m just a bean (the cereal) cause I´dont fell anymore... I dont trust, like or look for good things anymore... What´s for? Anything don´t matter... stay blue or happy to me doesnt matter... What´s for? I´m just a bean ! I´m just a little small bean in this freak life...  

Yeah... The weather is really hot here in Goiás... Sometimes, living in the middle of the country looks like be a cammel in a desert and you just fell like a toast champ... I´ve been working so hard just to try to pay my bills... Everything is over date... Yeah, I´ve with a lot of problems that are worst than anothers notes that I wrote here. It´s so many things to deal... today I discover that I´ve changing so much... I dont trust anyone... I dont believe in friendship and in human care... So, What I became? Life changes me? I finally learn about my way of life... Maybe, I just trying to living without pain and bad surprises... just waiting for the bad breath from another person... so, if something good happens so it´s really a kind of surprise ! Ok... but It´s ok... I glad for everything... life is it ! so thanks god for another day in my life... Every clowns like me usually are blue... so be a blue clown is quite normal for hide emotional problems... so let´s laught and cry in the same time... life is it... I dont have nothing to lose !

I´m so upset and blue to write something about my last days... so, let´s just see a cell phone pics resumé (yes, I´m freak)